The tension was palpable in the classroom, where desks had been replaced by rows of desks spaced apart. This was during the final inquiry period for the March mock exam. The children glanced at their watches and then at their test papers, quickly marking their answers. When the closing bell rang, the teacher clapped her hands.
âPut down your pens and collect your papers from the back.â
As the student at the back of the class collected the papers, Kimâs arms slumped over the table. Heâd spent the entire test concentrating, ready to unleash all of his studying over winter break.
âBoys, keep your desks straight because your homeroom teacher wonât let you finish. Give me your marks for the practice tests. And for the English supplement after the midterm, I want 10,000 won each from the vice principal. This is because we have to pay for it in a group order.â
Se-kyung, who had already left the classroom, gently delivered the message. On the day of the mock test, there was no yaja, so the kids were noisy as they prepared for dismissal. Kim Deuk-pal bent down like an old man with a bent back and gently pushed his desk back to its original spot. When he reached the front of the class, Se-kyung, who was staying near the teacherâs table, snatched up his test and asked.
âDid you do well on the test?â
âI wonât know until they grade it.â
Kim Deuk-palâs grumbling didnât stop Se-kyung from taking the test. In fact, he looked forward to it. It wasnât just a night of reading, it was a night of reading. He didnât do any organizational work, he just studied day and night, and heâs sure heâll get a 7+âŠâŠ.
Se-kyung covered the test paper but didnât return it. With his fingertips, he traced the name âSong Yi-heonâ on the test paper cover.
âDo you want to study together? Iâll explain what you got wrong?â
Kim Deuk-palâs eyes narrowed in suspicion, realizing that this bastard probably didnât mean well by asking us to study together.
âIâd love to⊠Are you okay?â
âYeah, letâs go to your place and study.â
âMy house?â
Maybe itâs because heâs such a clueless bastard, or maybe itâs just because heâs so shallow, but Yi-heon find Se-kyung adorable. Cute and creepy are different.
âThereâs nothing stopping me from taking him home. However, Iâm hesitant because usually when I get home from Kim Duk-palâs pajamas, I find Song Yi-heonâs biological mother drunkenly occupying the couch in the living room. Based on her behavior since her discharge from the hospital, it was unlikely that she would be sober during the day.â
Yi-heon remembered walking to school this morning and having to keep his head down to avoid seeing Songâs mother sleeping on the couch in a slutty slip. He suggested a different place.
âLetâs go to the detention room.â
âI donât want to visit them.â
Se-kyung said in a rare refusal. The study hall was open to students who wanted to stay up late. However, on a mock exam day, there would be no teacher to supervise them from talking as usual. The room would be loud like a market. Kim Duk-pal wonât offer twice because Se-kyung is so adamant.
âI want you to study separately, or Iâll chase you home.â
But he didnât give in to Se-kyungâs demands. She was grateful for his help, but he was confident in this mock test. He wouldnât have gotten much wrong, but with the right amount of detailed explanations, he didnât mind not having Choi Se-kyung around.
âYi-hoenâ
Heard Kim Deuk-pal call Hong Jae-min a few times, and then Se-kyung repeated it. As Kim Deuk-pal became disgusted by this, he realized the true meaning of the stationâs support was apparent.
âYouâre so wrong.â
â⊠A lot?â
âA lot.â
From here to here. Se Kyung flipped open the math section of the practice test and traced his finger across the page. He didnât need to say a word. Kim Deuk-palâs mind became blank. Itâs all wrong.
* * *
Song Yi-heonâs house was near Choi Se-kyungâs. It was so close that it almost made up for all the heartache heâd suffered over the past year when he couldnât find him. As they rode in the sedan to pick up Song Yi-heon, Se Kyung looked out the window at a familiar street. He retraced the path Song Yi-heon must have run barefoot in his pajamas on a rainy day.
As they stepped out of the sedan and crossed the nicely manicured garden, the front door opened. Kim Deuk-pal kicked off his sneakers first, then blocked Se-kyung from entering.
âWait here for a minute.â
He hurried inside without indoor shoes. Se-kyung waited, suspicious of his concealment attempts, but soon heard a faint call from inside.
âCome in.â
In the spacious living room at the end of the hallway, Kim clucked his tongue as he threw a blanket over the person lying on the couch.
âAig, tsk. Young .â
He couldnât see the person lying on the couch, hidden by the backrest. But as soon as she realized that the brown hair sticking out of the couch was the same as Song Yi-heonâs, Se-kyung impulsively walked out.
As soon as she got near the couch, she held her breath because the liquor smell was overpowering. The woman sleeping on the couch was so drunk that even Se-kyung could tell she was drunk.
ââŠWho is it?â
âMother.â
The woman was too young to be her mother and had been drunk since broad daylight, but she looked like Song Yiheon. Se-kyung took a closer look at her face, thinking that her shabby appearance was similar to Song Yi-heonâs visit on a rainy day. Mmm, the woman tossed and turned in her sleep. Se-kyung jerked her head away as the blanket slipped off, revealing a skinny shoulder with a prominent comb-over, clad only in a slip.
âLetâs go upstairs.â
Kim Duk-pal patted him on the shoulder and gestured toward the stairs leading to the second floor.
âHey, is Yi-heonâs student friend here?â
Seo Sandaek left the kitchen to greet the guests. Kim Deuk-pal tilted his head at her cheerful greeting and naturally called out to her.
âPlease boil some water for the kids.â
Wouldnât you normally ask for a snack or refreshment? No, you are a child. Se-kyung was offended by Song Yiheonâs patronizing tone. He glanced over at Seo San, wondering if the housekeeper had noticed something strange as well.
âYes, yes. Iâll get you some fruit and something to drink.â
But Seo Sandaek, already acclimatized, nodded. As she followed Kim Deuk-pal upstairs, Choi Se-kyung couldnât help but wonder if he was the only one sensitive to the change of Song Yi-heon.
They reached the second floor hallway. A high-pitched shout alternated with the sound of a Wudang bathtub collapsing downstairs, and Se-kyung reflexively leaned down to see what the commotion was about. A slender bare leg in a red slip, half hidden by the first-floor ceiling, ran from the living room.
âAuntie, auntie, chairman, chairmanâŠâŠ!â
âUgh, Mrs. Lee, calm down. The chairman called to say he couldnât come.â
âWhereâs the butler? Iâm trying to talk to the butler. Let go of meâŠâŠ!â
The woman looked unsteady and couldnât keep still. Seo Sandaek, who was a lot thicker than her, grabbed her and shook her, insisting she must see the chairman. She fluttered like a fluttering flag, and then, tired of weeding, she grabbed the hem of Seo Sandaekâs dress and collapsed.
The slender body in the slip curled up and gasped for air at the slightest disturbance. But unable to control my own breathing, I didnât let go of my grip on Seo Sandaekâs dress hem. I raised my head, clutching the hand that tried to slip away.
âChairman, tell the chairman, Iâm about to pass away⊠Iâm dying⊠Iâm going to die⊠Come quickly, please save Min-seoâŠâŠ.â
The long hair that covered her face fell away, revealing her side. A plump forehead, a fine nose bridge, lips that trembled as they swallowed back tears, and pale cheeks like wax. It was an attractive face, but it was the eyes, with their thick lashes, that disturbed Choi Se-kyung. Eyes that pleaded for help, just like the night she came to him. They were the same eyes.
His forearms gripped the railing. As she turned to go downstairs, Kimâs arm grabbed his shoulder from behind. He dropped his bag into his arms.
âFirst room down the hall. Come in.â
Descending the stairs, he plucked the hem of Seo Sandaekâs robe from the fainting womanâs hands. He slipped off his school uniform, Mai, and draped it over her shoulders. He forced her to her feet and she followed him groggily. She sobbed, unaware she was leaning on her son.
As Kim Duk-pal held her shoulders and supported her, Seo San-daek, who had fallen, walked ahead and opened the door to the womanâs bedroom. He could hear a voice calling somewhere, explaining the situation.
âWhoa.â
It wasnât the first time this had happened. When Kim Deuk-pal sighed in frustration, the woman who had asked him to call the chairman stopped crying. In an instant, she looked back at Kim Deuk-pal. She pushed him away with her red nails like an angry cat.
âWhat did I give birth to?â
Her legs trembled, she swung her arm around, barely able to stand, and her left-handed hand slammed into Kimâs right cheek. The ring on her left ring finger drew red welts across her cheek. When the slap didnât work, she blamed her son.
âYou canât take the chairwomanâs beauty, but youâre doing something disgustingâŠâŠ!â
Looking at Song Yi-heonâs diary on the tablet, Se-kyung knew his mother wasnât normal. However, this was way beyond what the âoriginalâ Song Yi-heon, a high school student, could handle.
As a young actress at the peak of her popularity, she met the chairman and became pregnant with Song Yi-heon. The chairman promised to divorce her and marry her if she gave birth to a boy. However, she didnât keep the child and was forced to take a break from acting when she couldnât hide her belly. She didnât expect to retire, and she never imagined that she would be forced to live a life of obscurity. This was because the chairmanâs wife, who gave birth to one daughter after another.
She had to give up the life she wanted when she gave birth to Song Yi-heon. Her shining life was compressed into a man she had called Mr. Chairman. Because the dreams she had to abandon were so colorful, she clung to the chairman, thinking she had only one left.
Song Min-seo, who is still considered a star of memories, was possessed by crazy. Trapped in a small house, unable to cope with her bare existence, she got drunk and gnawed at herself. She believed the chairman was her only way out.
ââŠâŠ.â
Kim Deuk-palâs head snapped back upright as he brushed past subordinate. His dark gaze was locked in silence, and Song Min-seo, fueled by evil, shrank back. After nearly two decades of living at the mercy of violent emotions such as rage, she could not bear emotion stillness.
Kim Deuk-pal raised his hand. The chairmanâs cheek was often placed on hers in his drunkenness, and Song Min-seoâs skin crawled with fear. Unable to recognize the son she had given birth to, she cowered like a small animal trying to hide. Her eyes fluttered frantically, and her bony hands clutched the silk slip.
But the upraised hand did not strike Song Min-seo; it wrapped around the back of her head and pulled her to bury her head against his shoulder, stroking her roughly and whispering in a cracked voice.
âYouâre pretty enough, you donât need the chairmanâs favor.â
Seo San-daek said that Song Min-seo gave birth to Song Yi-heon when she was twenty. She would have been forty then, but Song Min-seo, who looked so much younger, reminded him of the younger sister Kim Deuk-pal had left behind in Mokpo. She would have been around Song Min-seoâs age when she rebelled against her parentsâ refusal to let her return to school and left without saying goodbye.
It bothered him that he had never been a big brother to his sister, whose face he could no longer remember. He gladly offered his shoulder.
âTake it out on me. Donât look for the chairman, just tell me, and Iâll take it all.â
Song Yi-heon, donât do it to that poor kid.
Somewhere along the line of crude comforting touches, his shoulder became damp. Song Min-seo shivered dryly. Kim Deuk-pal calmly stroked her hair until the sobs choked out of her tight throat became the sobs of a child crying for release.